“Not my will, but yours be done.”
Luke 22:42
What a powerful statement. What Jesus said right here is, I trust you.
I love this scripture so much because it reveals that without a doubt we are going to go through some really hard things, just like Jesus did.
And instead of questioning God, we stop.
We eventually, ultimately, surrender.
We acknowledge that this isn’t what we want, but we say I trust you God.
We say, if this is how it’s suppose to be I trust you. I know you are with me, I trust you. And then we fully give it to GOD.
I said this prayer just a few days ago to God while in great pain and suffering…..not my will but yours be done.
I more so told God in my head that this isn’t what I wanted but if this is the plan for me and this is how my life is suppose to end I fully trust you God. I told God that I surrendered.
I told God that I trusted him and that if this was my time to go that I would accept it. I wasn’t going to question what was happening. Even though it’s not what I wanted I let God know once again that I trusted Him. I told God that I would be sad to not watch my children grow though.
After I spoke with God, I let it all go.
The rest was completely out of my hands and how this was going to end was something I trusted with God. I trusted his plan for me and my family.
How thankful I am for my faith and for Gods Word. Countless times I feel as if my hand has been held.
Now, what led me to that moment with God was I woke up with some minor abdominal cramping, very minor. As the morning continued the pain increasingly progressed to the point where I could barely even walk.
I called for my husband and he rushed home from work and raced me to the ER.
After an hour later of excruciating pain they discovered that I had a twisted intestine and that it was attached to a scar adhesion from a precious c-section.
Things got real, real fast when they said they were sending a helicopter for me to get surgery right away.
It was in that moment where I knew this was very serious. I was in too much pain to be scared but I knew my husband was terrified.
This is where I surrendered. I wanted the pain to end. I was letting go while fighting. It’s a hard thing to explain.
But I can fully say that I put my trust in God. Words can’t fully express how I felt when I woke up after the surgery and even how I still feel in this moment.
My testimony has grown in a way that excites me and that I’m eager to share. I have been redirected in the most beautiful way.
The word of God gives hope. The word of God gives peace. The word of God gives us strength.
What I have gone through God has been with me the entire time.
And I’m so grateful to have trust Him.
Thank you Lord, amen.
The Wild Gems 