What My Ideal Home FEELS Like

What does your ideal home look like?

Let’s change the look to feel.

There’s a difference.

I’m more focused on what my home feels like than its overall appearance.

My home is comfort, safe, loving, where people can come over and feel at ease.

The energy that my home carries is very important to me.

I do strive to make it a place of love where that’s felt consciously and unconsciously.

What that looks like is…..somewhat of a minimalist design. No room is overcrowded.

I have visible green plants that are noticed once you walk in……natural light….the kitchen window is usually cracked….photos of places we love to be, art, a few crafts on display from my kids.

Earthy tones and colors. A few real life “flaws” (chipped paint, toys laying around, markers and crayons scattered currently on the table I’m writing at).

When friends visit I like playing soft music in the background. Usually jazz type. I may light one candle too.

Like I mentioned previously…..my home vibe is so important to me. This is the home that homes my children. And the home that welcomes my guests.

Whenever we go on a trip I always put my hand on the wall and tell our home to be good, enjoy the peace and quiet for a little bit and that I love it.

Then I kiss the wall.

I love our home and I believe others can feel that love when they walk in.

Life Feels HEAVY

How are you feeling right now?

Heavy actually. I feel heavy.

My mom is currently taking care of her dying mom and that has taken a complete toll on her. It’s very difficult for her to witness her mom deteriorate and her family is being nothing but a bunch of bullies. It makes me so mad and sad for her.

My sister in law (my two kids birth mother) is currently having a manic episode and in the mental hospital. She’s been calling my husband leaving the most obscene voicemails. It’s incredibly triggering. How badly I want to just go off on her but obviously I can’t.

The world just is sad. Propaganda is everywhere and many can’t see it. Its frustrating. So much separation, so many labels, people intentionally provoking and for what? Humanity is something else. Super cliche but where is the love????

TMI – but I’m also in the phase before “my moon water” in other words — my period. Completely taboo to talk about women bleeding every month bit WE DO. And so currently my emotions are high, I’m very in touch with others and as I mentioned…..it’s just heavy.

If you made it this far, I appreciate it.

My blog is typically very positive, thought provoking, and encouraging.

However today I’m going to be honest with what’s going on today. And yesterday I was taking a shower and I was thinking how badly I want to be petty sometimes. Being the “bigger person” sometimes is annoying. I want to be petty and childish and just go off!!

But truth be told, it’s just not worth my energy or time and I know.

That felt great lol.

Ummm…. VERY.

How important is spirituality in your life?

Incredibly important. It’s vital.

This question to me is like — how important is oxygen to you?

However, if you ask a child that question their response would probably be I don’t know. But there answer would only be I don’t know because they don’t have that awareness yet.

Just like oxygen gives you life, your spirit gives you life.

Just like anything, it’s a part of YOU worth tuning into and strengthening.

Your spirit is not something on the outside, it’s something you tap into. You become aware of this driving force, this power, and you give your gratitude.

You aren’t you without your spirit.

And think, we don’t own oxygen, it is gifted to us by the trees and even the oceans.

Your spirit as well is a gift. And that gift is gifted from God.

I LISTEN AS BEST AS I CAN

How do you practice self-care?

When I’m tired I sleep.

When I’m stressed or overwhelmed I say NO.

I don’t do things I don’t want to do.

I take my time.

I’m not friends with “the hustle” or “the grind”.

I get rid of stuff, and I get rid of stuff often (donate actually, but I get of stuff that no longer serves)

I read.

I pay attention to my seasons.

I take time for myself.

I love self care.

Work On Yourself And Change The World

What are you passionate about?

For me, I would say I am very passionate about doing the inner work.

Working on yourself, learning to love yourself, beginning to ask yourself more questions…..ABOUT YOURSELF.

Investigate your behaviors, your reactions, your responses…….there is just so much learn about who you are.

And when you begin to learn more about yourself you begin to better yourself. You begin to flourish, radiate, heal, and grow in a completely different way.

And that’s how you change the world if you’re really interested. You work on yourself.

It’s as simple as that.

Now I will add though, working on yourself is very hard. It’s opening all these doors that you locked and sealed without even knowing you locked and sealed. It’s difficult but I will say it’s worth it.

When you decide to embark on this journey I just want to remind you that you’re never alone.

I Prefer Spring Temperatures

How do you feel about cold weather?

*cringe*

I don’t like it.

I really don’t….that much.

I enjoy wearing jackets and hoodies….that’s fun and cute but overall I just really don’t enjoy being cold.

It’s funny because when I was younger I lived in Alaska for 4 years (5th grade to 8th grade) and I loved it. I loved the snow!

I loved sledding especially! As a child it was playful and fun. I’m laughing just reminiscing. Now I’m getting kind of sad.

They were fun times as a kid.

However being in my 30s now I just don’t want to be cold.

Well actually, I actually like sleeping when it’s a really cold because then I sleep deeply and I do love that.

Now I’m rambling, but you asked!

“If The World Was Blind……”

Do you have a quote you live your life by or think of often?

A quote I think of often goes something like,

“If the whole world was blind, except you, you would live your life a whole lot differently.”

I don’t remember where or when I heard this, although I know it’s been awhile.

And so when I’m experiencing something I do think of this quote often and I think how could I explain or describe this to a blind person.

Because let’s say I did live in that world, where the whole world was blind except me…..it most definitely would be different.

I wouldn’t be like, “oh the sunset is so pretty today, it’s pink, orange, and shades of purple.” The people wouldn’t know what I was talking about it.

So everything would be more poetic and feeling. I may say, “tonight’s sunset is so beautiful. Looking at this sunset is like,

….that one kiss. That one kiss when you were 15 and didn’t really know what you were doing but it was amazing. You walked into your house with a huge grin on your face and magic in your young heart. The sunset looks like that; youthful, bright, warm, present.”

We don’t realize how much we do for status, or perception. Or how much deeper we can get with things that we can experience and looking at things beyond the physical.

That quote really made me realize that and I love it for that.

I would most definitely still be blogging one hundred percent because blind people can read.

But I probably wouldn’t wear make up anymore lol.

First Thing That Comes To MIND – HA

Jot down the first thing that comes to your mind.

There was a recent writing prompt that encouraged others to share when they are most productive….

AND truth be told I am so incredibly productive when I’m really pissed off. Like, I am going to paint the bathroom today.

If my house is super clean, there may have been anger behind it lol!

Anyways, you all have the most beautiful day and thank for you for being here!

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