Author: The Wild Gems

Heavy actually. I feel heavy.

My mom is currently taking care of her dying mom and that has taken a complete toll on her. It’s very difficult for her to witness her mom deteriorate and her family is being nothing but a bunch of bullies. It makes me so mad and sad for her.

My sister in law (my two kids birth mother) is currently having a manic episode and in the mental hospital. She’s been calling my husband leaving the most obscene voicemails. It’s incredibly triggering. How badly I want to just go off on her but obviously I can’t.

The world just is sad. Propaganda is everywhere and many can’t see it. Its frustrating. So much separation, so many labels, people intentionally provoking and for what? Humanity is something else. Super cliche but where is the love????

TMI – but I’m also in the phase before “my moon water” in other words — my period. Completely taboo to talk about women bleeding every month bit WE DO. And so currently my emotions are high, I’m very in touch with others and as I mentioned…..it’s just heavy.

If you made it this far, I appreciate it.

My blog is typically very positive, thought provoking, and encouraging.

However today I’m going to be honest with what’s going on today. And yesterday I was taking a shower and I was thinking how badly I want to be petty sometimes. Being the “bigger person” sometimes is annoying. I want to be petty and childish and just go off!!

But truth be told, it’s just not worth my energy or time and I know.

That felt great lol.

Incredibly important. It’s vital.

This question to me is like — how important is oxygen to you?

However, if you ask a child that question their response would probably be I don’t know. But there answer would only be I don’t know because they don’t have that awareness yet.

Just like oxygen gives you life, your spirit gives you life.

Just like anything, it’s a part of YOU worth tuning into and strengthening.

Your spirit is not something on the outside, it’s something you tap into. You become aware of this driving force, this power, and you give your gratitude.

You aren’t you without your spirit.

And think, we don’t own oxygen, it is gifted to us by the trees and even the oceans.

Your spirit as well is a gift. And that gift is gifted from God.

When I’m tired I sleep.

When I’m stressed or overwhelmed I say NO.

I don’t do things I don’t want to do.

I take my time.

I’m not friends with “the hustle” or “the grind”.

I get rid of stuff, and I get rid of stuff often (donate actually, but I get of stuff that no longer serves)

I read.

I pay attention to my seasons.

I take time for myself.

I love self care.

This precious moments bible.

I actually do have a memory bin with many old little keepsakes but that I actually still use daily or often would be that little Bible.

It’s so childlike, I love it.

For me, I would say I am very passionate about doing the inner work.

Working on yourself, learning to love yourself, beginning to ask yourself more questions…..ABOUT YOURSELF.

Investigate your behaviors, your reactions, your responses…….there is just so much learn about who you are.

And when you begin to learn more about yourself you begin to better yourself. You begin to flourish, radiate, heal, and grow in a completely different way.

And that’s how you change the world if you’re really interested. You work on yourself.

It’s as simple as that.

Now I will add though, working on yourself is very hard. It’s opening all these doors that you locked and sealed without even knowing you locked and sealed. It’s difficult but I will say it’s worth it.

When you decide to embark on this journey I just want to remind you that you’re never alone.