Still Waiting for a Sign

Sometimes I wish she’d visit me in a dream.

Just once.

Just to say, “Hey, I know we didn’t get to be together in the earthly realm, but it was all for a reason. Just know I’m with you, and it’s all okay.”

I’ve heard stories from others about feathers on their doorstep, songs on the radio at just the right time, vivid dreams where their loved ones speak clearly. I try to hold space for those stories, to feel joy for them…

but I can’t help wondering—why not me?

I lost my birth mother, and along with her, a lifetime of moments we never got to share. There’s a quiet ache that comes from not getting to know someone who shaped your very beginning. Now that she’s in the spirit world, part of me longs for just one sign. One dream. One whisper.

But there’s only silence.

And yet… maybe that silence doesn’t mean absence.

Maybe the connection is still there, just not in the way I expected.

Maybe she’s been with me all along when I’ve felt courage I didn’t know I had, or grace that came out of nowhere. I’m apart of her, I know that, and getting to know me is getting to know her too.

Still, I hope.

I hope that one night, maybe in a dream, she’ll say what my heart has longed to hear:

I see you. I’ve always loved you. And even though we couldn’t be together in this life…..your path, it’s unfolding exactly as it should.”

Until then, I’ll keep listening.

And I’ll keep trusting that love finds a way,

even in the quiet.

Soften The Heart: Devotional #32 — He Will Never Leave You

“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified… for the Lord your God goes with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you.”

Deuteronomy 31:6

I feel like at a very young age, I always leaned into God. Even when life didn’t make sense, I somehow knew I was loved. Not just loved by people—but by God. It was a quiet knowing that I was held, seen, and cared for, even in moments where nothing around me felt steady.

But as I got older and life began to unfold in more complicated ways, abandonment became a deep and painful thread in my story. The kind of wound that doesn’t leave a scar you can see, but one you carry in your heart.

I experienced the “primal wound” of being separated from my biological parents. My parents divorced when I was eight, and I think most of us kids felt like second picks to their new spouses. Then, when I was seventeen—my senior year of high school—my mom moved out of our home to follow her husband’s job transfer. She wanted me to come, but I didn’t. I couldn’t. It felt like she chose him over me, and the message I internalized was: You’re not worth staying for.

I moved in with my dad and stepmom. And then, after high school, my dad—“in the nicest way”—told me it was time to move out. He helped me get set up with school and paid for my apartment, which I’m thankful for. But the emotional part of it still hurt. Deeply.

As I became a mother myself, I found that old wounds resurfaced in new ways. I couldn’t understand how some of the choices my parents made were even possible once I knew the depth of love I had for my own kids.

These layered experiences of being left or feeling replaceable shaped my thoughts in relationships. When someone got close, I would think, It’s just a matter of time before they leave… or choose someone over me.

But even in all that pain—even when I questioned people—I kept leaning on God. I kept coming back to His promises. His love. His Word.

Deuteronomy 31:6 says He will never leave you nor forsake you. And I believe that. It’s the one relationship in my life that has never felt conditional. I trust God in a way I struggle to trust others, because He has never walked away. He has never picked someone else over me. He doesn’t move on or get tired or lose interest.

So I return to Him. Again and again. Not because I’m perfect—but because I know He is.

If you’ve ever felt left behind, replaced, or like you had to earn your place in someone’s life… please know this:

God doesn’t leave. He walks with you through every ache, every misunderstanding, every broken piece. And He whispers, “You are mine. You are loved. I will never let go.”

Soften The Heart: Devotional #31

“And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.”

Hebrews 11:6 

My poor Bible has been pretty lonely. I haven’t been actively reading it. I’ve been spending time with God in nature and in meditation but I haven’t been studying his word. Which I think it’s just as important.

So today I was flipping the pages of my Bible looking for inspiration today…

and I came across this verse I had highlighted. Hebrews 11:16.

And there’s a word in that verse that stands out, believe.

It’s a reminder that trust is crucial.

Faith is kind of like the wind. We can’t always see it but we feel it. It moves through the trees, brushes our skin, and reminds us:

“I’m here.”

I do believe God is like that. All around us. Reminding us and encouraging us of His presence.

Something greater. Something powerful. Something all-knowing. Something here.

And though I don’t fully understand all of it…I do believe this greater power truly loves us.

But like any relationship, it takes two. We want God to constantly reach out and prove Himself…

Yet we don’t always seek.

Seek God.

Let the veil be lifted.

Open your heart.

Open your eyes.

And maybe you’ll start to feel Him like the wind. Maybe this “foreign language” will begin to make sense.

Faith is not about having it all figured out. It’s about having hope.

Keep seeking.

God sees you and is with you.

He rewards those who do.

Soften The Heart: Devotional #30

“As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother’s womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the Maker of all things.”

Ecclesiastes 11:5

Sometimes you hear of things that just make you freeze.

Unbelievable news. Tragedies that feel too big to hold. The sudden, silent crash of reality when life does something you never saw coming.

Sometimes it shakes you to your core that such things happen at all, that this world, the same one where we sing lullabies and light birthday candles, is also a place where deep sorrow and confusion live.

My thoughts scream, “I don’t get it.”

I know I’m not suppose to get it either. We are but children on this earth but the frustration is ever present at times.

I find myself sitting still, eyes locked on nothing, just staring off—wondering. Wondering why. Wondering what the truth is. Wondering how to keep walking forward with the storm of the questions that I possess.

But this verse brings awareness and comfort.

“As you do not know the path of the wind…”

The wind is real, even when I can’t see it. It moves through trees, across oceans, through my hair. I don’t know where it begins or where it ends. I just know it’s there.

And “you do not know how the body is formed in a mother’s womb…”

Another miracle wrapped in mystery. Life forming in secret, one invisible cell at a time, shaped by something far beyond my comprehension.

That’s the point. Faith isn’t about answers—it’s about surrender. About breathing in mystery and still choosing to believe in something good.

There’s a sacredness in not knowing.

There’s room for trust in the questions.

The mystery must remain.

God—the Maker of all things—moves in ways I can’t always trace or explain. And sometimes the most honest prayer I can offer is simply:

“I don’t get it. But I trust You anyway.”

Amen.

When Our Child’s Tears Mirror Our Own: Breaking the Cycle of Emotional Projection

“Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate.”

Carl Jung

Why do we sometimes get triggered by our children’s emotions?

One word: Projection.

It sounds simple, but it’s layered and deeply human. Projection means we unconsciously place our own unresolved feelings onto others—often without realizing it. And with parenting, this tends to show up when our kids express emotions we weren’t allowed to feel growing up.


When Their Emotions Stir Something In Us

Let’s say your child starts crying over something that seems small—maybe they can’t get their shoes on. You feel irritation rise. You say, “You’re fine. Stop crying. It’s not a big deal.”

But under that reaction might be this:

You weren’t allowed to cry when you were small. You were told to toughen up. Crying meant weakness. And now, when your child does what you weren’t permitted to do, it brings up old pain you never had space to process.

What you’re feeling isn’t just about their emotion—it’s about your history with that emotion.

How Do We Break the Cycle?

1. Pause Before Reacting

Even a brief pause creates space. In that moment, silently ask yourself:

“What am I feeling right now?” “Is this about them… or something unresolved in me?”

This small habit can change everything.

2. Get Curious Instead of Controlling

Shift from, “This needs to stop,” to, “What are they trying to express?”

Emotions are messages. Our children are not giving us a hard time—they’re having a hard time.

3. Reflect on Your Own Story

Later, when things are quiet, explore:

“Was I allowed to feel this as a child?” “What did I learn about emotions like anger or sadness?”

Self-awareness is the first door to healing.

4. Reparent Yourself as You Parent Your Child

When your child is upset, respond with:

To them: “It’s okay to feel that way. I’m here.” To yourself: “I wasn’t taught this, but I’m learning now. We’re both safe.”

You’re not just raising a child—you’re healing generations.

5. Offer Yourself Compassion

Getting triggered doesn’t mean you’re failing. It means there’s something inside you that’s asking to be felt, seen, and gently loved. The more grace you give yourself, the more you’ll have to give.

This work isn’t easy. But every time you choose to pause, to stay present, and to feel instead of react, you are breaking a cycle—and building a new legacy.

One where emotion is not feared, but welcomed.

One where your child feels safe to be fully themselves.

And one where you get to heal in the process.

The Soul’s Mirrors: Twin Flames, Karmic Partners, and Deep Spiritual Teachers

Have you ever met someone who felt strangely familiar, even if you had just met?

Or someone who completely shook your world — whether through love, conflict, or deep lessons?

There’s a reason so many ancient traditions and modern philosophies speak about soul connections.

They are part of something much bigger than coincidence. They are part of how our souls grow.

Let’s step into this mysterious world together.


Where Do These Ideas Come From?

The concepts of twin flames, karmic partners, and spiritual teachers aren’t new.

Versions of them have existed for thousands of years — from the Hindu ideas of karma, to Plato’s philosophy about the soul being split into two, to Eastern teachings about souls traveling together across lifetimes.

In more recent times, these ancient ideas have woven themselves into what many now call New Age spirituality — but their roots are timeless.

At the heart of them all is one truth:

Relationships are how souls evolve.


Twin Flames: Two Halves of One Flame

The idea of a twin flame is that two souls were once one, and they split into two bodies to experience life separately — only to eventually find each other again.

But reunion is not just about romance.

It’s about transformation.

Twin flames reflect back everything inside you: your wounds, your fears, your dreams, your divinity.

The connection is intense and often chaotic at first. Twin flames trigger healing by exposing everything that still needs light. The journey isn’t about “completing” each other — it’s about becoming whole within yourself.

In ancient Greece, Plato described this beautifully in his dialogue Symposium, where he wrote that humans were originally whole beings, split apart, and forever seeking their other half.


Karmic Partners: Lessons Written in the Stars

Karmic partners are different.

You are drawn to each other because of unfinished business — energetic debts, unresolved wounds, lessons that must be learned.

The connection is magnetic, passionate, but often heavy. These relationships usually teach through contrast: by showing you what you don’t want, what needs healing, or how strong you truly are. Once the karmic energy is balanced, the relationship often naturally fades.

The word “karma” comes from Sanskrit, meaning “action” — and with karmic partners, past actions ripple forward, offering a chance to heal and complete old cycles.


Deep Spiritual Teachers: Not Always What You Expect

Not every soul connection is about romance or pain.

Sometimes, a soul crosses your path simply to awaken something inside you.

A deep spiritual teacher could be:

A friend who helps you remember who you are. A mentor who inspires you to rise. Even someone who hurts you in a way that forces you to break free and rebuild.

These soul encounters can be short or lifelong.

Their purpose is transformation — to nudge, push, or pull you closer to your true self.

Ancient mystics believed that God, the Universe, the Divine — whatever name you use — speaks to us through people. Every powerful connection is a whisper:

“Wake up. Grow. Remember who you are.”


At the Root of It All

At the deepest level, all of these connections — twin flames, karmic partners, spiritual teachers — are mirrors.

Each one shows us something we could not see alone.

Each one invites us to love more deeply: ourselves, others, and the divine heartbeat running through everything.

We do not meet anyone by accident.

Every soul who touches ours leaves an imprint — shaping who we become.


Closing Thought

If you’ve ever wondered why certain people enter your life with such force —

why some feel like home, why others feel like a wildfire —

know this:

You are not lost. You are being shaped.

You are not being punished;

you are being awakened.

Every soul encounter is a part of your journey back to the wholeness you already carry inside.

Don’t Underestimate the Power of a Well-Timed Break

In a world that glorifies hustle and productivity, taking a break can feel like a luxury—maybe even a weakness. But the truth is, rest is not just a pause from progress; it’s an essential part of it. Just like the seasons, we’re not meant to be in constant motion. Even nature understands the importance of stillness.

Take trees, for example. In the winter, they appear lifeless—bare branches standing still against the cold. But beneath the surface, something remarkable is happening. Their roots stretch deeper, gathering strength. Their energy is reserved, stored, and redirected for future growth. The dormancy of winter isn’t stagnation; it’s preparation. And when spring arrives, they bloom with renewed vitality.

We could learn a lot from the trees.

We push ourselves to keep going, believing that if we stop, we’ll fall behind. We ignore exhaustion, replace rest with caffeine, and convince ourselves that burnout is just part of the process. But when we refuse to pause, we rob ourselves of the restoration we need to thrive.

A well-timed break isn’t laziness—it’s strategy. It allows the mind to reset, the body to recover, and the soul to breathe. It’s in those moments of stillness that clarity emerges, creativity reignites, and energy returns.

So, don’t underestimate the power of stepping back. Take the nap. Close the laptop. Step outside. Embrace the quiet. You are not failing by resting—you are preparing. And just like the trees, when your next season of growth comes, you’ll be ready.

Small Acts of Self-Love: 30 Ways to Be Kind to Yourself

1. Treat yourself to your favorite coffee or snack—just because.

2. Say no to plans if you don’t really want to go—without guilt.

3. Let yourself be lazy for a day (or an afternoon) without feeling like you need to “earn” it.

4. Indulge in a guilty pleasure—watch trashy TV, eat the chocolate, read the romance novel.

5. Ignore calls and texts if you don’t feel like talking—protect your peace.

6. Buy yourself flowers just because they make you happy.

7. Take a ridiculously long, hot shower or bath with no rush to get out.

8. Wear the cozy outfit instead of the “put-together” one.

9. Rewatch your comfort movie or TV show for the 100th time.

10. Order takeout instead of cooking—sometimes convenience is self-care.

11. Sit in your car a little longer before going inside—enjoy the quiet.

12. Put your phone on ‘Do Not Disturb’ and enjoy uninterrupted time.

13. Buy yourself the little thing you keep talking yourself out of.

14. Listen to music from your teenage years and sing along loudly.

15. Go to bed ridiculously early or sleep in late just because you can.

16. Light your favorite candle for no reason at all.

17. Read in bed with no pressure to be “productive.”

18. Make yourself an over-the-top, fancy drink—whether it’s a cocktail or a hot chocolate.

19. Take yourself on a solo date—to a bookstore, coffee shop, or anywhere you love.

20. Let go of something that’s been weighing on you—mentally or physically.

21. Take a midday nap with no shame.

22. Turn off your alarm for the weekend and wake up naturally.

23. Write down three things you love about yourself.

24. Dance around your house like nobody’s watching.

25. Eat your meal in complete silence, enjoying every bite.

26. Spend an entire day in pajamas if that’s what you feel like doing.

27. Watch the sunrise or sunset just for the beauty of it.

28. Unfollow accounts on social media that make you feel bad about yourself.

29. Let yourself cry if you need to—sometimes release is the best self-care.

30. Take deep breaths and remind yourself that you are enough, just as you are.

Which one do you feel like doing today?

Crying Is a Beautiful Thing—Here’s Why

Tears often get a bad reputation. Many people see crying as a sign of weakness, something to be hidden or suppressed. But the truth is, crying is one of the most natural, healing, and even necessary things we can do. It’s not just an emotional release—it’s a biological function with real benefits for our mind and body.

So the next time you feel tears welling up, don’t fight them. Let them flow. Here’s why crying is actually a beautiful thing.


The Science Behind Tears

Did you know that not all tears are the same? There are three types of tears, each with its own unique purpose:

1. Basal Tears: These keep your eyes lubricated and protect them from drying out.

2. Reflex Tears: These clear out irritants like dust, smoke, or onion fumes.

3. Emotional Tears: These are triggered by strong feelings like sadness, joy, frustration, or relief.

What’s fascinating is that emotional tears contain stress hormones and toxins, meaning that crying actually helps your body release built-up tension and cleanse itself.


The Benefits of Letting Your Tears Flow

If you’ve ever had a good cry and felt lighter afterward, there’s a reason for that. Here’s how crying can benefit your well-being:

It Reduces Stress – Crying lowers cortisol levels, helping to ease tension and bring your body back to balance.

It Releases Endorphins – Tears can trigger the release of oxytocin and endorphins, the body’s natural feel-good chemicals. This is why crying can actually leave you feeling calmer and more relaxed.

It Strengthens Emotional Resilience – Allowing yourself to feel and process emotions instead of suppressing them helps you move through challenges with greater self-awareness and emotional intelligence.

It Connects You to Others – Tears can be a bridge, helping us express vulnerability and deepen relationships. People who cry in front of others often experience stronger emotional bonds.

It Improves Sleep – Studies have shown that crying, especially before bed, can help regulate emotions and lead to better sleep quality.

It Helps You Heal – Whether you’re grieving a loss, feeling overwhelmed, or simply processing life’s ups and downs, crying is a healthy way to release and heal.


A Different Perspective on Tears

Many cultures and societies teach us to hold back our tears, especially in public. But what if we saw crying for what it truly is—a natural expression of being human?

Babies cry to communicate. Athletes cry when they win or lose. Loved ones cry at reunions and goodbyes. We cry out of love, joy, sorrow, and relief.

Tears are a language that words can’t always express.


Final Thought

Crying isn’t something to be ashamed of—it’s something to honor. It’s a reminder that you feel deeply, that you care, and that you are alive.

So if you need to cry, let yourself. It’s not a breakdown—it’s a release. And sometimes, that’s the most beautiful thing of all.

Crown Chakra: Your Connection to the Divine

At the top of the chakra system lies the Crown Chakra, known in Sanskrit as Sahasrara, meaning “thousand-petaled lotus.” Located at the crown of the head, this chakra represents spiritual connection, enlightenment, and the vastness of the universe. It is the bridge between your individual self and something greater—whether you see it as divine energy, the universe, or pure consciousness.

If the Third Eye Chakra is about seeing truth, the Crown Chakra is about becoming one with it. It is where wisdom, peace, and transcendence reside.


A Glimpse into the History

The Crown Chakra has long been associated with higher states of consciousness. In Hindu and Buddhist traditions, it is linked to spiritual awakening and enlightenment, symbolizing the dissolution of ego and the merging with universal energy. In many depictions, saints, sages, and deities are shown with halos—representing an open and radiant Crown Chakra.

The color violet or white is associated with this chakra, signifying purity, clarity, and divine wisdom. Its element is pure consciousness, beyond the physical and material world.


Signs Your Crown Chakra May Be Blocked

When your Crown Chakra is blocked or imbalanced, you may feel disconnected—from yourself, others, or a sense of purpose. Here are some signs:

Feeling Disconnected from Life’s Meaning: Struggling with a sense of purpose or questioning existence

Lack of Inspiration: Feeling uninspired, unmotivated, or stuck in daily routines without deeper fulfillment

Closed-Mindedness: Rejecting new ideas, feeling spiritually disconnected, or resisting growth

Chronic Stress or Overwhelm: An overactive mind with constant anxiety about the unknown

Physical Symptoms: Headaches, dizziness, trouble sleeping, or feeling mentally drained

An overactive Crown Chakra may lead to feeling detached from reality, overly focused on spirituality while neglecting the physical world, or experiencing an inflated sense of superiority. Balance is key!


How to Unblock and Balance Your Crown Chakra

Unlike other chakras, which are balanced through action, the Crown Chakra requires stillness, surrender, and trust. Here’s how to align with it:

1. Meditate Daily: The best way to connect with the Crown Chakra is through meditation—sitting in stillness and allowing yourself to be present.

2. Spend Time in Silence: Disconnect from distractions and allow space for inner wisdom to emerge.

3. Connect with Nature: Watch the sunrise, stargaze, or simply sit in nature to feel connected to something greater.

4. Practice Gratitude: Appreciate the beauty of life, both big and small. Gratitude raises your energy and deepens your connection.

5. Seek Spiritual Knowledge: Read spiritual texts, listen to wisdom teachings, or explore different perspectives on life’s mysteries.

6. Use Essential Oils: Frankincense, lavender, and sandalwood can help promote relaxation and higher awareness.

7. Affirmations: Use statements like “I am connected to divine wisdom” and “I trust the universe’s plan for me.”

8. Let Go of Control: The Crown Chakra reminds us that not everything is meant to be understood—sometimes, we must surrender and trust in the unknown.


Final Thought

The Crown Chakra is your gateway to peace, wisdom, and divine connection. When balanced, you feel a deep sense of purpose, inner peace, and trust in the flow of life.

You are not just a drop in the ocean—you are the ocean in a drop.

You were meant to lead with faith—trust in the journey, and allow yourself to expand beyond limits.