Am I Fulfilling My Purpose?

What are you curious about?

There is so much I’m curious about. I mean, I’m curious about everything and nothing really makes sense to me.

Our very existence makes me curious. Like how is any of this even possible. The fact that we live on a planet surrounded by other planets and stars is just strange and insane to me. Even my daughters recognize how much of trip living is. One of my daughters always says, “is any of this even real, it feels like I’m in a dream”.

I’m curious about the details of life and everything’s purpose. It’s amazing… all the connections. I also wonder why certain things are certain things. An example would be why are the planets round and circular and not square or triangle. Why is fire orange and red and not pink and purple? My daughters taught me to wonder about things like that.

Our programming also keeps me curious. Some days I’m like who am I really without this programming and conditioning. Is everything just a coping mechanism? I don’t know, I think a ton. But I enjoy it in a way. I enjoy thinking about stuff I don’t know and getting lost in wonder. I am curious if we really will get all the answers one day.

People who have had near death experiences day say we will. And I do believe in God. That’s something I am curious about.

I’m glad we don’t have all the answers though in this life. This life experience wouldn’t be that great if we knew everything. There’s joy to be found in search and discovery.

Stay curious friends, always. We are all in this together.

Quick Tostadas

When you need a delicious quick dinner this is a great go-to! Now, I am not going to get specific with measurements of ingredients. Chop as much as you want, use as much as you want, just enjoy it!

What You Need:

Tostadas (Guerrero)

2 premade bags of beans (La Sierra Refried Beans)

Chopped up lettuce

Chopped up fresh cilantro

Chopped up fresh roma tomatoes

Queso fresco crumbled (Ranchero)

A couple of Avocados sliced up

A yummy salsa (your favorite)

Rotisserie chicken shredded

Lime sliced and ready for a good squeeze

How To Layer Your Tostada

1. Start with your tostada, then spread your refried beans. It works like glue.

2. Next add your shredded chicken or beef.

3. Then add your lettuce, tomato, cilantro, and cheese.

4. Top your tostada with an avocado slice and drizzle your favorite salsa. Squeeze lime juice all over and ENJOY!

Give A Golden Kiwi

Write about a random act of kindness you’ve done for someone.

Here’s a random one.

Not to long ago I was at the grocery store doing you know, the weekly shopping.

The golden kiwis were on sale so I put 4 or 5 little cartons of kiwi in the grocery cart.

At check out an older lady and her husband were standing behind me. Probably in their 60s. She points to the kiwis and says, “oh wow, what kind of kiwis are those? I’ve never seen them before.” I said, “oh my goodness they are golden kiwi, they are soooo good. I had never tried these before either until my stepmom introduced them to me.”

She then says, “I’ll have to get them next time. We love fruit.”

After I finished paying for my groceries I handed her a carton of golden kiwis with a smile and said, “Here. Take these.”

She had the most surprised look on her face. I can still see it in my head. Maybe it had been awhile since a human has surprised her. She kept saying, “are you sure?” And I said, “Yes, yes! Absolutely! Enjoy!”

She was so thankful. It made me feel so good too. I truly hope she and her husband enjoyed the fruit!

Turning 34 Highlights

I turned 34 this past Thursday, July 13th. The best day ever. Just kidding lol.

I actually had a really great day! My husband taking the day off for me was the best thing of all! He either took it off for me or low key took it off because he wanted to do the ghost ship obstacle course at the community pool. Either way, I had him!

We had a family breakfast at First Watch that my dad and step mom paid for. Which was delish! Ordered it up!

After that we came home and relaxed. I took a birthday selfie. Then we got ready for the pool. We spent almost 4 hours swimming. It was so much fun!!! My father in law came to help with the kids and my husband and I got to do the obstacle course at the pool by ourselves. We felt like kids again.

Once we were done swimming we all got in and out milkshakes and they all sang happy birthday to me. It was too cute. My daughters said happy birthday to me countless times followed by how much they love me. Couldn’t get enough of it. A nice break from, “you’re mean mommy!” Haha.

When we finally got home we just relaxed and my hubs took the kids to the neighbors and gave me some time to myself. He’s the best ever!

The next day a girlfriend of mine took me on a dinner date and we splurged at The Cheesecake Factory. The bang bang chicken and shrimp is BOMB. Curry and coconut flavors! So yummy!!

Ended with classic cheesecake.

I am so blessed. I am so thankful. I am so grateful. Spending my birthday with my family is the best gift I could ever receive.

Thank you Creator of the Universe.

Breakfast at First Watch. I love French toast.
Birthday Selfie.
Why my husband really took the day off hah!
My Tarzan.
Dinner with my friend! It works out when it’s just two of you! You don’t have to wait in the long line!
Oh! And the most beautiful sunset on my birthday 🙏.

Keeping My Retainer

List 10 things you know to be absolutely certain.

I’m just going to say the first things that come to mind because I’m working on answering these writing prompts in 5 mins or less.

* took longer than 5 mins *

1. The best bread for a grilled cheese is on sour dough.

2. You can grow so much through just reading.

3. I am very blessed.

4. Space is crazy.

5. Connections are everywhere.

6. I overthink too much and have been stuck on this number for like 5 minutes.

7. The media is mind controlling.

8. Breathing exercises and cold showers do help with anxiety.

9. There’s so much I don’t.

10. If I stop wearing my retainer my teeth will go crooked.

I Love My Hubby, But……

What bothers you and why?

The first thing that comes to mind is….

being rushed.

My husband always rushes me when we need or want to go somewhere. I can’t stand it. He will start the car sometimes while I am barely even ready!

He is always in a hurry though. I find myself saying often, “do we have an appointment somewhere? Did I miss something? Why are we rushing?”

I don’t know that this behavior will ever really change but I have accepted that’s how he is. Luckily I am able to get ready super fast. And when I get in the car I’m usually angry.

Then I look at him and say, “you should be happy I can get ready so fast and I am not high maintenance.” Then he smiles and says, “one of the reasons why I married you.” And then gives a cute wink. Then I give him a smirk like, “yeah yeah…” It’s so hard to stay mad at him for long.

But you know what ends up happening sometimes? I end up saying, “I don’t know if I unplugged the straightener?” Then he gets all mad at me that he has to turn around because I HAVE to check. And I really do! I HAVE to make sure it’s unplugged! It’s annoying! These days I literally say outload, “the straightener is unplugged.” And if it’s not the straightener it’s the oven or the stove.

That has happened more than once.

However, now when he rushes me, before he pulls out of the drive way he says, “Marie go make everything is unplugged.”

So we are making progress. Haha!

“it may be more helpful to be gently adventurous, pushing the boundaries firmly but in small measures.”

Are you seeking security or adventure?

We find ourselves with two mutually conflicting tendencies in the heart: the desire for adventure and the desire for security.

The desire for adventure is really the desire to know, to explore, to push beyond the real or imaginary limits. All of this requires going out of one’s comfort zone and can be potentially stressful and pain-bearing. What makes people go for it anyway is the tantalizing possibility of successful breakthroughs, which can be enormously fulfilling and pleasurable. All great discoveries and inventions have occurred through the spirit of adventure.

The desire for security is the desire to be safe, to avoid risks, and to accept certain limitations in return for peace of mind. We usually find security in what is familiar, be it a place, an idea, a person, or work. Some people seem to prefer the boring known to the exciting unknown. The desire for security is often connected with responsibility for dependents (one’s family, for instance)…….

……..In life we often go back and forth between these two tendencies—to be adventurous and to be safe. When certain adventures end in disasters, we pull back and become extra-cautious, preferring the security of the familiar to the thrill of the unknown. When we get bored by the endless routine of familiar chores, the mind becomes restless and we gather enough courage to try out something new … until we become disillusioned again and return to our own comfort zones. Some of us never really figure out how to handle these two tendencies. Getting the balance between the two is not always easy.

It is a helpful exercise to look within and find where we lie on the adventure/security spectrum. Rather than indulge in reckless adventures, it may be more helpful to be gently adventurous, pushing the boundaries firmly but in small measures.

June 10, 2019 by Swami Tyagananda

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Most Random Dinner Party

If you could host a dinner and anyone you invite was sure to come, who would you invite?

I would invite the musical artist FKJ to play in the background. He would play the piano and the saxophone to really create the whole ambiance. His wife would come too because she has a few great songs too that I would encourage her to sing.

I would invite Akaine Kramarik. She is an incredible painter/artist who’s been having visions since she was 3 or 4. She painted The Prince Of Peace. Check out her story! I would invite her family too because I would love to hear how her visions and paintings shaped them.

I would invite Jim Carrey too. I love his insight and I know he would be making all of us laugh too. I know many think he’s weird, but I don’t.

I would also invite some cirque du soleil folks. There would be a show to entertain the guests.

I would invite Penn and Teller to perform a magical act. Penns an atheist so it would be super interesting to have him sit at the same table with Akaine. I would love to hear them talk to one another.

I would invite of course all family and friends. It would be an incredible party.

I’d probably also ask my closet family members and friends who they would want me to invite and I’d just invite them. Like I know my mom would want me to invite Donny Osmond. And a girlfriend of mine would definitely want Russel Brand.

I’d probably invite the Kardashians too. They are like a guilty pleasure. They just know how to have a good time. And their kids could play with my kids.

I asked my husband who we should invite and he said, “Marie I don’t know….. invite Donald Trump.”

Overall this would be the most random ass dinner party. But could you imagine….

Relationships, Perspective, Confidence

What do you think gets better with age?

I try to imagine my children asking me this question.

If I am speaking for myself I will say, I believe certain relationships get better. You don’t always know which ones will get better but the ones that do are very special.

Your perspective also gets better. Little things won’t get to you as much. And you indulge in more simple pleasures like taking the time to really watch the sunset.

Your confidence/mentality gets better. You care less and less what others think. You do what you want to do, what you gotta do….FOR YOU.